genius=no man

Gemini Horoscope for today...
April 22nd 2006
It's a good time for a strategic retreat. You need to consider your own issues and feelings before turning to face someone else's. It's going to be hard to express yourself to anyone you are attracted to.

Fuck, that's so right on. I was crushing on my "pool boy" and just when i think it can actually go somewhere...POW!!! Not gonna happen. Dammit- what is wrong here?!? I like this guy, he likes me...there always seems to be soemthing to fuck it all up. just when i think i'm over j and s i realize i'm just as fuck'd up as everyone else on the planet.

this realization makes me sad. i am feeling like crying. i just feel so let down by the entire male species. (all but my dogs, who remain constantly faithful). i am totally blown off by S (who i still have some feelings for, i realize), i am played with by the pool boy (who i can never tell when he's kidding or not). how can such an independent smart woman get worked over by men SO OFTEN?!?! My IQ is in the genius range, for god's sake. Why does this seem so hard for me?! Idiots can find a guy in five minutes.

I need to be a hermit and swear off men forever, i swear!!!!

my own desperate housewives moment

i am sitting here at my kitchen counter lusting after the yummy guy who is cleaning my mom's house. damn- is that wrong? he has no idea i am writing this right now.

i am a naughty girl. teasing young boys is going to be my new hobby. my mom ran to the store and we stayed here. the time was spent by me persuading him to show me the goods* and vice versa. there was a little smoochie smoochie here and there...ah, gotta love the young guys. i may be done w/older guys forever.

when my mom looks the other way, my ass gets grabbed. or when he walks by my hand "accidentally" brushes his package. sly flirty glances happen when in company, dirty conversations while we are alone. i know i probably shouldn't go down that road w/this guy. i'm kinda starting to dig him. uh oh.

must keep things professional. must stop looking at this kid like a piece of meat. must...stop...lusting...

*ps- the goods were...uh, better than good!