what (and who) i've been doing for the last 2 months
i had an internet penpal for like 6 months before i moved here to MI. this was not a guy i really considered dating. for one he had been recently divorced. two, he's just not as crazy as i like my guys. he is just not my type.
we met in person and i thought he was a lot cuter than i expected. we hung out a few times. he was akward and nervous around me, no clue why. i had felt like he wanted to kiss me for weeks, but never got up the nerve to make a move on me. and i don't make things easy for guys. so he got nothing.
we hung out a lot more. i went on a slew of lame dates and one night he was helping me put together a futon and i saw him totally differently than before. here is this guy who is crazy about me and i'm not even giving him the time of day. i should look at the guy right in front of me. immediately he was bf potential. funny how things work like that.
we were sitting on the assembled futon and he was hugging me. i was so overwhelmed with work i was about to cry. (side note: i am in the process of opening a retail store and it's a shit ton of work). i asked him, "do you think i can do it?" meaning, the store. without missing a beat he replied, "the store? fuck ya, no doubt in my mind". that is exactly what i needed to hear. i leaned over and kissed him right there. then told him, "that was exactly the right answer". we spent the rest of the night making out. i had no idea a nerd could be such a great kisser.
the sex was super, but a little vanilla. i dont' like having to tell a guy to fuck me from behind. i want a guy who wants to do it. but it was pretty cute to see him so appreciative after i gave him the best blowjob of his life.
after that day, it kinda fast forwarded into bf/gf. which for the moment it felt nice...someone who cared about me, someone i could do things with, someone who was a good friend. but it was almost like when you eat to much ice cream. it tastes delicious at the begining but then after you realize it was a mistake.
we had the "let's slow down" chat, then a week went by where we didn't talk. i missed my buddy so bad. then we see each other and hook up. he says how much he missed me and it feels so good to be with me, blah blah. i totally adore him as a friend, yet as a bf there's not much there.
can i keep him as a fuck buddy?
we met in person and i thought he was a lot cuter than i expected. we hung out a few times. he was akward and nervous around me, no clue why. i had felt like he wanted to kiss me for weeks, but never got up the nerve to make a move on me. and i don't make things easy for guys. so he got nothing.
we hung out a lot more. i went on a slew of lame dates and one night he was helping me put together a futon and i saw him totally differently than before. here is this guy who is crazy about me and i'm not even giving him the time of day. i should look at the guy right in front of me. immediately he was bf potential. funny how things work like that.
we were sitting on the assembled futon and he was hugging me. i was so overwhelmed with work i was about to cry. (side note: i am in the process of opening a retail store and it's a shit ton of work). i asked him, "do you think i can do it?" meaning, the store. without missing a beat he replied, "the store? fuck ya, no doubt in my mind". that is exactly what i needed to hear. i leaned over and kissed him right there. then told him, "that was exactly the right answer". we spent the rest of the night making out. i had no idea a nerd could be such a great kisser.
the sex was super, but a little vanilla. i dont' like having to tell a guy to fuck me from behind. i want a guy who wants to do it. but it was pretty cute to see him so appreciative after i gave him the best blowjob of his life.
after that day, it kinda fast forwarded into bf/gf. which for the moment it felt nice...someone who cared about me, someone i could do things with, someone who was a good friend. but it was almost like when you eat to much ice cream. it tastes delicious at the begining but then after you realize it was a mistake.
we had the "let's slow down" chat, then a week went by where we didn't talk. i missed my buddy so bad. then we see each other and hook up. he says how much he missed me and it feels so good to be with me, blah blah. i totally adore him as a friend, yet as a bf there's not much there.
can i keep him as a fuck buddy?
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