day 1 on the dating fast

it has been only ONE day into my self-imposed dating fast & here are my thoughts (good, bad and ugly) so far...

the good: it is very nice to not think about guys in a dating capacity, it makes me feel a little more free to focus on exactly what i want to do with my life. also it will probably eliminate some always fun heartache. i am kinda excited to be selfish and do whatever the fuck i want.

the bad: forbidden fruit is always much tastier. i am looking at guys too much...must focus... (side note: i have already scanned panera for hot guys-shit!)

the ugly: i talked to S today and he said he was "sorta dating" some girl, that was hard because it made me miss him and made me want a bf-ANY bf just so i wouldn't have to be alone. ah, but i guess this is exactly why i don't need to be dating right now anyway.

ok, i can do this. this is by far the best decision for me right now, and by no means the hardest thing i've accomplished.

if you'll excuse me, i'm going to get back to my single girl pity party at panera.

sandi's new 'puter

I am sitting here in Panera Bread molesting my new computer. Ahhhh how luxurious to have something that is made in the 2000s. It came with a very dangerous built-in webcam. Uh oh. I will not playing w/the webcam when I'm drunk...I will not play w/the webcam drunk...I will not...

Ha- who am I kiddin?!

I wonder if I can search porn on Panera's server??? How funny would that be?! You are just minding your own business, eating a bagel, and some biotch in the booth across from you is looking at "Horny Co-eds Gone Wild". Sweet!!!