do i have a bf or no?

it has been two weeks since the bf and i broke up. but we aren't really broken up. it's weird. i've never really had this experience before...it's always been "goodbye" and i've moved on, never looking back, never regretting. this guy is different.

we split on a thursday, by tuesday i emailed asking to come get my stuff. i was dying but figured i had more to say so i better get it out. so i get my stuff, and we got it all out on the table. when did you fall out of love with me? why did you get so dependent? i think i'm going through a mid-life crisis. i'm in a funk. did i cause this? can we still be friends? what now? i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.

the night ended with us snuggling all night, not knowing what the future held.