one day down

it's been about 24 hrs since the bf & i broke up. my heart is killing, i feel like i'm going to die. fuck, relationships hurt!!!

every little thing makes me think of bf. i miss my buddy most of all. i miss the sex. i miss the way things used to be.

i am fighting the urge to pick up the phone and call him. nooooo sandi! bad girl. i'm going to go throw back some tequillia to hopefully erase my mind a little.