when NOT to run into an old bf

i recently started seeing a new guy, who happens to be very fun and cool. that is besides the point, it's really just background info.

so i haven't talked to AM for about a month, after my bday blowup i wasn't even about to try to deal with him. better to put that off for another day. so after avoiding him for a while, i finally broke down and called after receiving a small talk email from him (ie. how are you, how's the store, etc).

things were akward over the phone, unsure of what to say. i ended up crying not from sadness but frustration that i ended up in that situation with someone i *knew* was wrong for me from the begining. i asked if we "were cool" and said i'd call again another time. semi relief washed over me, i was totally ok with everything. i still didn't want to see him in person yet.

fast forward to tuesday, when i'm on a dinner date with the new guy. who is sitting a table next to us? of course, AM is. i yelped, "oh my god" and immediately felt nervous. "you look totally flustered, do you want to leave?", the new guy said. i declined and tried my hardest to just act *normal*. i haven't had anything like that happen before, so i was so caught off guard.

after beer #1, i chilled out a little bit, trying not to look at AM. i scooted my chair to the other side of the table, facing my back towards him and grabbed the hand of the new guy, whispering "i'm so sorry". he kissed my head and told me not to worry about it since he was the one who was with me he didn't care about the old guy. good answer!

what a yucky experience.