broken hearts suck

is the pain ever going to end? i'm sure it will. in the meantime i'm stuck mending a broken heart the confusion and loneliness that goes along with it. the pain from ending a relationship has to be the worst feeling in the world. i now realize why people stay when they should go- just to avoid the pain. right about now, it seems like a good idea.

i really thought i had some clear direction lately and it turns out it was fantasy. i wanted something, anything, to believe in so bad i just made it out of whatever i had in front of me. i'm mourning for not only what i had, but what could have been.