it has been a sllllllllllllllllllllow year
yeah happy hump day everybody!
i just realized, 2006 has been a very slow year in the humping dept. i mean molasses slow. i mean grass growing slow. i mean paint drying slow. you get the point.
now, i'm usually the girl whos gfs live vicariously through. i am known affectionately as "samantha" with my best gf. i generally, juggle several suitors and still remain blissfully single. 2005 was an eventful year with a wide collection of fun and debachery. sadly, this year has been woefully un-scandalous.
after discussing this with my best gf, i realized just how close i am to being celebate for 2006. i counted it up- oh yes, i could count the actual TIMES i had sex, not how many guys- the TIMES. i cringe as i confess it's around 10. there's just no excuse for that. there's no reason why, in the 8th month of the year, the number shouldn't be at least quadruple that. and that's a low estimate, considering the amount of time i needed sans man after the last bf.
there have been a shortage of guys i've been that interested in. i had my fling guy, not really good for anything anymore now that i completely cut things off between us. i had the radio guy, who i "dated" for about a month. and i had a few dates here and there to make me not feel like a total social pariah.
so what the hell have i been doing? is there an explaination for my lack of sex? have i not been trying hard enough or just not that into it? damn apathy strikes again!!!
as i look back on the year, i realized i was in hibernation & pretty anti-social for the first half of it. i had just come out of a very hard situation and pretty much needed some time off from life. i almost didn't notice the lack of sex. almost. (see those month's blogs for my thoughts) ok, so that kinda explains january thru june. kinda.
this past month has brought limited scandal minus a drunken indiscretion w/the past fling guy. i'd like to think i had the opportunity for more naughty behavior, yet for some reason (to be totally cliche) i'm just not that into it. while i have not lost my nympho-like interest in sex, more specifically, i'm just not that into casual sex, which is always plentiful if you are reasonably a)young, b)attractive, c) willing.
my dilema now is, i am not fullfilled by the casual sex lately (oh, you all knew there would come a day!) yet, i am undecided on the idea of a bf. since my long term bf 3 years ago, i have been avoiding committments like the plague. some may say it's me, some may say it's the guys. who knows? while i'm not entirely opposed to the idea, i am not out there (like many girls) desperately hunting for a man. if i come across someone i find interesting, i may look into it.
ugh, but that leaves me with the only other option than a bf (considering flings are not really that appealing any more)...going without sex. yikes. dammit, why has it come down to this?*takes deep breath*
i hope, at the very least, i end 2006 with a quantity number in the 50s. here's to hoping.
i just realized, 2006 has been a very slow year in the humping dept. i mean molasses slow. i mean grass growing slow. i mean paint drying slow. you get the point.
now, i'm usually the girl whos gfs live vicariously through. i am known affectionately as "samantha" with my best gf. i generally, juggle several suitors and still remain blissfully single. 2005 was an eventful year with a wide collection of fun and debachery. sadly, this year has been woefully un-scandalous.
after discussing this with my best gf, i realized just how close i am to being celebate for 2006. i counted it up- oh yes, i could count the actual TIMES i had sex, not how many guys- the TIMES. i cringe as i confess it's around 10. there's just no excuse for that. there's no reason why, in the 8th month of the year, the number shouldn't be at least quadruple that. and that's a low estimate, considering the amount of time i needed sans man after the last bf.
there have been a shortage of guys i've been that interested in. i had my fling guy, not really good for anything anymore now that i completely cut things off between us. i had the radio guy, who i "dated" for about a month. and i had a few dates here and there to make me not feel like a total social pariah.
so what the hell have i been doing? is there an explaination for my lack of sex? have i not been trying hard enough or just not that into it? damn apathy strikes again!!!
as i look back on the year, i realized i was in hibernation & pretty anti-social for the first half of it. i had just come out of a very hard situation and pretty much needed some time off from life. i almost didn't notice the lack of sex. almost. (see those month's blogs for my thoughts) ok, so that kinda explains january thru june. kinda.
this past month has brought limited scandal minus a drunken indiscretion w/the past fling guy. i'd like to think i had the opportunity for more naughty behavior, yet for some reason (to be totally cliche) i'm just not that into it. while i have not lost my nympho-like interest in sex, more specifically, i'm just not that into casual sex, which is always plentiful if you are reasonably a)young, b)attractive, c) willing.
my dilema now is, i am not fullfilled by the casual sex lately (oh, you all knew there would come a day!) yet, i am undecided on the idea of a bf. since my long term bf 3 years ago, i have been avoiding committments like the plague. some may say it's me, some may say it's the guys. who knows? while i'm not entirely opposed to the idea, i am not out there (like many girls) desperately hunting for a man. if i come across someone i find interesting, i may look into it.
ugh, but that leaves me with the only other option than a bf (considering flings are not really that appealing any more)...going without sex. yikes. dammit, why has it come down to this?*takes deep breath*
i hope, at the very least, i end 2006 with a quantity number in the 50s. here's to hoping.
posted by issuegirl at 9:31 PM
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