man-free update

it had not even been 2 weeks into my man-free life & i think i'm going insane. anything with a penis is sounding not so bad right now. well, ok, ya that was an exageration. anything with a HARD penis is sounding good. and of course, some cosmic trick is being played on me because hunk after hunk is seeming to fall down right in front of me. now all i need is for all these beefcakes to profess their undying devotion & sexual fidelity and i will know i have entered hell. come on, world- how much torture can one girl stand?!?!

i'm starting to think i'm wearing "celibacy goggles", making the normally 4s appear to be 8s or better. maybe i'm so hard up for dick any guy is looking good? the guys i'm hungry for right now i probably wouldn't even look at twice if i was getting it regularly. note to self- get second opinions on any potential "hunk" from an objective straight woman, i cannot be trusted. i digress...

my victim for today...every woman's fantasy- the gardener/handy man! wait- not the usual mexi-gardener/handy man than we usually have working here at the haney ranch. noooo sireeeeee. this guy is actually do-able.

we have relatives stopping by for easter tomorrow & i didn't want to get stuck cleaning the whole place myself so i put an ad on craigslist for someone to help us clean. i forwarded the emails to my mom & she picked raul. i expected a little mexican hombre to show up, but instead i was pleasantly surprised by a really cute "sandi type" guy with a great smile and adorable personality. no! no universe- do not tempt me! no! i do not need this right now. i should not be lusting after the guy while he's cleaning my mom's kitchen. but there really is something sexy about a guy who is domestic.

now how am i to distinguish if this guy really is as cute as i think or if he's like a mirage in the dessert?

now i do not like to consider the thought that i am a quitter, but this whole abstaining bullshit is wearing thin. well, part of the dry spell has been out of my control. i just haven't really come across anyone i'd want to see naked. then, out of frustration i say officially i'm over it. but NOW i come across a whole bevy of dudes i'd want to get horizontal with.

my dilema today- do i continue down my dude-deprived path, focusing deliciously on my own selfish persuits? or do i perhaps just give up all the charade and actually admit i maybe do want a guy around, thereby opening myself up to potential drama/hurt/heartache.

ha you don't expect me to have the answers, do you???