something i will NEVER get

this is something that i will never ever understand. yes, i can understand complex scientific theories, statistics, physics and even can claim to own a genius iq. yet, one thing that baffles me time and time again-

men

well, more specifically, how men seem to be completely hypocritical when it comes to traits of their ideal women. i am talking about the guys who wax poetically on the virtues of a well-adjusted, cool, easy to get along with, funny & intelligent badass chick yet when presented with one they get the glassy eyed look and run to the nearest psycho or drama queen. they panic when they come across a girl who may actually be GOOD for them and not give them grief and chaos.

this has not been just a fluke with me, no sir. this has happened to me more times than i'd like to admit. (one guy actually told me he was "waiting for the other shoe to drop with me" because i seemed so cool, he was used to girls who were "more trouble". what an idiot!) i am too honest to pretend guys never pass me up for other girls. ha. if only that were never the case. i digress...

recently, i went out with a guy for like a month. he briefly told me about his ex gf, whom he described as "immature", "dramatic", "not having her shit together" and "explosive". sounds like a girl all guys would run the other way from, right? well, after me, guess who he gets back with? yep! miss chaos! i don't get it. i gave him too little shit and drama? should i have thrown a fit or developed a jealous streak to make him more interested?

not on your life! i'd never lower myself to that rediculous behavior to turn the head of a man!!!

however, i am starting to wonder about the appeal of the drama queen vs the cool chick. what makes guys say to themselves "ya know, sandi gives me no shit whatsoever...i really miss that in a relationship. i don't like having a fun time with the girl i date. i think i'll go call that last bitch, the one who made me misrable. i need something to complain about. the drama makes my life interesting." is this what the guys are thinking?????

i think i'm going to stear clear of the guys who say they've had a string of "psycho" gfs. they must continue dating them for a reason. they must LIKE the drama. from this day forward, that will be a MAJOR red flag for me. for them, the attraction for chaos in a relationship will always override the normal healthy feelings. they say one thing but continually go after another. this is an excellent lesson, since no matter how cool i am- i will not change their inner relationship script. they will still view fighting, jealousy and chaos and "normal" and chalk up a functional interaction as boring due to lack of chemistry or something equally lame.

note to self- no more guys who are attracted to drama queens, psychos or unstable bitches. no matter how much i think i will change their mind, i won't. i will not be so foolish to think my coolness will override their longstanding beliefs.

i guess this is like the confusion that girls cause when they say all they want is a nice guy but then go from assholes to jerks and then to asshole jerks. on behalf of all the non-dramatic chicks out there i'd like to offer an apology for those biotches. they are a poor representation of our gender. sorry, nice guys. i still love ya.

this is not meant to be a "poor me" blog...more of an AH HA! oh, if only i would have figured this out years ago i could have saved myself lots of pain.

anyway, now that i got that off my chest...