i'm a leopard & my spots won't change

i give up. i am a quitter. a failure. i can't do it. my manless ideal will never come to fruition. oh well. (heavy sigh).

i can't give up men...but why the fuck do i need to???

i have attempted to not date for some time now & i have realize it is pointless. a leopard can't change its spots. my name is sandi & i'm a sex-aholic. i find men too tempting, too alluring, and just too fantastic to go without.

oh thank god. i can exhale in relief knowing that i am allowing myself my most favorite thing in the world! i can diet, i can save money, i can delay gratification in all other facets of my life. yet, the male species has some particular hold over me to which i have no power.

i don't mean i go from bf to bf, as that has never been my style. then again, i don't toss my pussy at any available dick. i don't need titty attention from guys to be validated. simply put, i just really enjoy the company of men and i don't know what the fuck i was thinking in trying to go against my grain & PURPOSELY avoid them. never mind that crap.

fuck it, i'm just going to roll with my high libito and relish in the testosterone buffet that is life. equipped with my affection for high heels and lipgloss, i am insured a fun time.

(raising a martini) thank god i'm back off the wagon!