trouble with blogging
well, let's state the obvious- guys i know read this shit. i guess there is a little voyeur in all of us. i know for a fact i have more than my share of exhibitionism, so who's to say there aren't my polar twins out there in the desire to observe (or read about) someone's life.
for as long as i have been writing, i have dedicated myself to the truth. i have a strange itching to expose the nuances of my human experience for the world to read. i have always said that i will not censor myself, nor will i hide who i am. it's your choice whether you find some value in what i have to say or not.
which brings me to my next thought...occasionally i have been a little uncomfy with someone i know reading my exploits.
"well why write if you don't want someone to read it?", you may ask.
my final statement is that i want the world to read it. i want to do my part to ease the feelings or un-normalcy in people out there. i want them to read my blog & think to themselves "if this seemingly together chick can do stupid stuff & still make a great life for herself, then maybe i can too" or even "if she is so smart & still makes mistakes, then i'm not as lame". someone saying that about me would be the thrill of my life.
it does, however, create some weirdnesses when guys read it. 1) they are not used to reading such frankness from girls. 2) they do not want to read about prior scandalous behavior of any lady they may be involved with or hope to be involved with 3)me being honest about my sexuality and behavior both alarms and arouses them.
*sigh* so what's a writer girl to do?
all i can say, is that you have to take the good with the bad. if you are one of the guys in my life, you do not want to open pandora's box. trust me. the fleeting moments of pleasure reading about what i think about you will be overshadowed by the prior blogs form a year ago when i describe banging my old bf. just don't do it, that's my tip for you.
for as long as i have been writing, i have dedicated myself to the truth. i have a strange itching to expose the nuances of my human experience for the world to read. i have always said that i will not censor myself, nor will i hide who i am. it's your choice whether you find some value in what i have to say or not.
which brings me to my next thought...occasionally i have been a little uncomfy with someone i know reading my exploits.
"well why write if you don't want someone to read it?", you may ask.
my final statement is that i want the world to read it. i want to do my part to ease the feelings or un-normalcy in people out there. i want them to read my blog & think to themselves "if this seemingly together chick can do stupid stuff & still make a great life for herself, then maybe i can too" or even "if she is so smart & still makes mistakes, then i'm not as lame". someone saying that about me would be the thrill of my life.
it does, however, create some weirdnesses when guys read it. 1) they are not used to reading such frankness from girls. 2) they do not want to read about prior scandalous behavior of any lady they may be involved with or hope to be involved with 3)me being honest about my sexuality and behavior both alarms and arouses them.
*sigh* so what's a writer girl to do?
all i can say, is that you have to take the good with the bad. if you are one of the guys in my life, you do not want to open pandora's box. trust me. the fleeting moments of pleasure reading about what i think about you will be overshadowed by the prior blogs form a year ago when i describe banging my old bf. just don't do it, that's my tip for you.
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