nightmares of the ex

YUCK! I've been having the WORST nightmares lately. I can't seem to sleep. I found out (don't ask how) that my ex-fiance just moved across the country with his new gf & they are living together. I guess I knew eventually he'd get serious about somebody, he's not that complicated. It's just still so strange, the idea of him being with someone else. The thing that's even more strange is that I don't have ANY desire for him whatsoever, I just don't want him with anyone else. Ok, ya, I guess that's not that strange. At the same time, I want him to be happy (and sometimes dead lol). One day I hope to wake up and realise that I have zero feelings left over from J & me. A girl can dream, can't she?