lessons
lessons. something you desperately need but spend most of your time running away from.
i am a huge believer in things are put in your life for a reason, things are put in front of you to make you learn a lesson. it's our job as humans to figure out WHAT those lessons are. if you don't figure them out, you will be forced to get hit over the head with them over and over until you just say "ok, universe, I GET IT!".
all the semingly negative things that have happened in my life definitely taught me lessons. the times where i had the biggest growth in my life...those came out of tragedy/sorrow/pain/dispair.
so how does this relate to my current situation?
i find myself single, after being in a sub-par relationship for the last 9 months. i was a great gf. for the first time in my life i felt like i could hold up my end of the partnership deal. i felt like i could give my heart to someone without all the worries that plagued me in the past. i felt like i finally was healed from the last guys to fully be present with this one. i did all the things i couldn't do in the last years of my life. when it comes down to it, i gave all of myself without hesitation. regardless of bf's ability to reciprocate, at least i know i did my best.
yes, i did end up getting very hurt. yes, i did try hard to make something work that just wasn't meant to be. yes. that's the bad news.
although i am still hurting right now, i know i will get through this a smarter, stronger chick. i have learned some huge lessons about who i am and what i deserve. i keep telling myself that the pain will end & it will all be a blessing in disguise. that's the good news.
i am a huge believer in things are put in your life for a reason, things are put in front of you to make you learn a lesson. it's our job as humans to figure out WHAT those lessons are. if you don't figure them out, you will be forced to get hit over the head with them over and over until you just say "ok, universe, I GET IT!".
all the semingly negative things that have happened in my life definitely taught me lessons. the times where i had the biggest growth in my life...those came out of tragedy/sorrow/pain/dispair.
so how does this relate to my current situation?
i find myself single, after being in a sub-par relationship for the last 9 months. i was a great gf. for the first time in my life i felt like i could hold up my end of the partnership deal. i felt like i could give my heart to someone without all the worries that plagued me in the past. i felt like i finally was healed from the last guys to fully be present with this one. i did all the things i couldn't do in the last years of my life. when it comes down to it, i gave all of myself without hesitation. regardless of bf's ability to reciprocate, at least i know i did my best.
yes, i did end up getting very hurt. yes, i did try hard to make something work that just wasn't meant to be. yes. that's the bad news.
although i am still hurting right now, i know i will get through this a smarter, stronger chick. i have learned some huge lessons about who i am and what i deserve. i keep telling myself that the pain will end & it will all be a blessing in disguise. that's the good news.
posted by issuegirl at 2:43 PM
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